Stay at Home Mom or Working Mom???

I can't decide if I'm neither or both. I work from home. That alone says it all. I have a florist studio in my basement where I work a good 30-40 hours a week during my busy months and closer to 15 hours a week in the slow season, but whether I be busy or not at work, I'm always busy at home. Along with working with clients and making product I'm also doing laundry, kissing boo boo's and cleaning toilets not to mention breastfeeding every two hours. I feel so lucky to have so much time with my kids, but although it's a blessing, it's also a curse. Now that I have my fabulous children it takes me a good three hours to complete a one hour task.

I guilt myself constantly about not being a good enough business woman and also not giving my kids enough attention. You can't have it both ways! I have decided my priority is my children. Both my children are under three and I figure, as all mothers would say, "cherish this time, you'll never get it back." That being said, I still have to keep my business going and I feel like it's suffering.

Just because the dishes aren't done with in two hours of them being dirtied and my clients have to wait 48 hours to hear back from an e-mail does not make me a failure.

Maybe the worst part about it isn't the priorities I have to make or the tough decisions (do I cuddle my crying infant or finish the bridal bouquet). The worst part is that I get negativity from all ends. The Stay-at-Home Moms think I'm not spending enough time with my kids and the Working Moms think I'm not giving my business enough energy.

Often times I just need to take three steps back and give myself some credit. I am doing the best that I can. I AM a good mother AND a good business owner. I'm doing it all just fine.